A break up. From someone with whom she felt like their bond knew not the meaning of the word. It seemed vague when applied to what she had with him.
Finally, oh yes, finally, she broke up from her 4 year old relationship which people say was toxic. But, have you heard of people who get a soothing high from alcohol? From cocaine? From coffee? She got it from this toxin heavy relationship.
A person like her who kept ranting about the extreme highs and lows while she was with him, now realizes that, this roller coaster was something her sole wants on a daily basis. Of course, a little routine change is always appreciated.
Now that she finally has that zero emotion life, she occasionally feels the need to cry for the sake of the teary hormones, sometimes wants to feel anger, for the sake of a varied blood stream rate, and most often she feels the need to offer some love to someone. To touch his hair, watch him smile at her. The carelessness of the thought, that yes, that smile is because that someone cares, without any maybes. I think most of us relate.
While one is in a relationship, we may not even realize how many weird things are getting fulfilled from the other person, all unintentionally, both ways. Whats ironic is that we happen to focus on just a few emotions like, annoyance, fights on repetitive things, you know, things which somehow get noticed and seem like the only things left in the bond of two people.
People let go, when both of them are ready to give up to this illusion that yes, that’s all that there is actually left.
More on this later. Until then, thank you for showing sympathies.
Cheers,
Meloncholy Happytrodder.
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